"I will leave you in peace"

Saturn enters 12th house with peace, step forward to soul path with light

Quoted from my Divine Masculine (DM) in 2021—I once asked her, “Do you think I will be at peace if you leave?” She replied, “Not really leaving you, lol.”

What I want to highlight here is that she never intended to leave, but spiritually, she had to. At that time, the North Node was transiting her South Node in Taurus. Since she is my DM, we share the same energetic patterns. Simultaneously, everything in my life started to shift from the moment Saturn entered my 12th house—a period that brought profound spiritual transformation.

The purpose of Saturn in the 12th house is spiritual liberation. That’s why her role was to leave me alone—to grant me the space for a higher purpose. She may not have fully understood why, but on a soul level, she had to. We both needed to evolve into higher versions of ourselves. No matter how much I wanted to control the situation—or how painful it was—I ultimately respected her decision.

But how does one achieve spiritual liberation? It’s an incredibly tough process. It brings feelings of loss, immense financial burdens, and detachment from the physical world. The only way through is deep spiritual practice, surrender, and reconnecting with both my own and my DM’s soul essence to move forward.

Internally, my energy began to shift higher with each healing session. The higher the vibration, the greater the detachment—not just from my DM, but also from my family, friends, and career. At the same time, my kundalini purification process was set in motion. During the first half of this journey, her soul self guided and stayed with me constantly. At times, I even had to clear her karmic energy. But where was my own soul in all of this? It was with her, guiding her forward.

However, when I returned to New Zealand, I felt a deep certainty—her soul and energy had merged within me, united as one. From that moment, her soul self returned to her, and my soul returned to me.

Breaking Karmic Cycles: My Path to Liberation

In 2023, due to unresolved past-life karmic ties, I left my family and chose to live in solitude to clear emotional baggage tied to my bloodline. My ritual practices began in 2022, combined with intense healing work, leading to the deepest isolation period of my life in 2024.

I resigned from my job. I lived alone, paying rent with no income, still searching for answers—Who am I? What do I truly want? I distanced myself from friends (or vice versa) who no longer aligned with me—those who carried energetic blockages and unknowingly drained my energy.

I don’t know if we will reconnect in the future, but I am certain that everything has unfolded for our highest good.

A Rebirth After the Dark Night of the Soul

Saturn is about to leave my 12th house and enter my 1st house—a rebirth after a death. For those currently experiencing Saturn’s transit through the 12th house, you are not alone. This phase can feel like a dark night of the soul, but with the right understanding, it doesn’t have to be as difficult.

I can guide and support you through this period, helping you navigate your energy through your natal chart and Human Design. The more awareness you have, the smoother the journey will be.

You are not lost—you are transforming.